Saturday, 19 March 2016
I'm actually spending some time cleaning out my bedroom at home this weekend, so literal spring cleaning is happening as well as more metaphorical cleaning.
As much as new year is a time for fresh mindsets and such, I feel like spring is a much easier time to cleanse your mind (and your room).
So I'm cleaning out my life this spring.
I feel like I've made a lot of changes recently, and I'm moving as much as I can towards being a happier person. And one of the ways I think is good for that is to 'cleanse', as such, by thinking about what I would like, who I would like to be around me, and the things I intend to do (in the short term at least (I can't make huge life decisions we all know that)).
Some of the things that I would like involve literally throwing things away, as I'm doing with my bedroom at home. I cleaned it out the summer before I went to uni almost two years ago, but I feel like there are a lot of things that I kept for no reason. Pretty much everything I need, I have at uni with me; understandably there are things I left at home that I use on occasion, like clothes and such, but there's a lot I don't require at all. As a result I'll be getting rid of things, sending them to the charity shop and such.
Something actually pretty big is that I've really come to terms with the fact that I don't want to live in Birmingham anymore. There have been things going on where I live that I'm really not happy with and that have caused me some grief, and as a result I've decided to live at home from the end of the semester, for both the exam period and my final year. This wasn't an easy decision but I think I'd really prefer to get the train a few times a week than to be close by and miserable. Practicality isn't everything. Well being is.
In terms of the people I want to have around me, I really do miss my mum and my dog and family when I'm at uni. My mum is my best friend and as much as we have hours and hours of phone calls a week, I miss just being near her; you can't always get the comfort you'd really like through the phone. There's a lot going on in my family as well, and as much as sometimes it definitely does feel easier to be out of the way, I'd like to be there and be more available to help out with certain things.
Something I intend to do is continuing to work my butt off. I spend so much time reading, writing, preparing for seminars, doing group work, and I feel like the more I put in the more I am getting out. I am so happy with my work ethic; sometimes it's a little exhausting, but it's all worth it as I'm literally doing the best I can and I'm not someone who will settle for less than my best. I'm hoping that this work will pay off in the last of my coursework, and ultimately my exams.
I feel like I've been making decisions, relatively big and small, that are making me feel better recently. Spring seems to be helping me spring into action, and I hope I can keep this up.
Though there will always be down days, I feel like I'm heading in the right direction to minimise them.
Until next time.