Thursday, 11 January 2018
Taking time to recover
So here's the thing. I've got the flu. I finally went to the doctor a couple days ago and she thinks I've had it for a month, as I've been really unwell on and off for a long while now. There's this Australian flu that's going around at the moment (and killing people (hA)) and basically that's what's going down here.
Therefore, I thought I might as well talk about the importance of taking time out to look after yourself - since I don't actually have the energy to go out and think of anything else to write about this week. Arguably still posting and writing this does not constitute 'time out', but this is a hobby and I'm literally lying down doing nothing else.
I, for one, am not very good at this, evidently. 'Time out' makes me uncomfortable. I feel like I'm letting other people down; I feel like I'm wasting time and being unproductive; and ultimately, I feel useless. Partially, I think it's because there's a lot of pressure to always be on the go these days, and always be busy, being useful, and being exciting. I'm someone who likes to keep busy - that's partly why I have this blog: it's somewhere to share my thoughts in my spare time. But being busy means not having time to be ill. And illness is, sadly, something we are all encumbered by every now and again.
I feel very lucky in knowing that the people I work with know that I have never had a sick day up until this point, and they know that I would never take one unless I was seriously unwell. But I still feel the guilt. Is there a way to lose that feeling? Or am I just the kind of person who easily feels indebted to others? It's probably so. And I can't see that changing any time soon. Something I pride myself on is my reliability, and being ill does not sit well with that.
So here I am, writing this post, as a reminder to anyone else who is ill at the moment: if I can take the dreaded time off to recover - something that actually breaks my heart a bit - then so can you. And you need to if you ever truly want to get better. Trust me, I tried the just taking a few days off and going back in thing, and it's left me feeling worse than ever.
Look after yourselves, especially during this vile winter we're having. Taking time to recover is important and essential. Don't question it.
Until next time.